"You know I'm No Good" is stuck in my head...

seriously this song...



so anyways... i haven't done it yet but who knows what might happen. I'm chillin with Mr. Business tonight. I told him as friends, but whatever happens happens. The inner slut in me is saying "fuck him... you know you want that big dick up in you.. you know you wanna ride his face again", but the good girl in me is saying "remember you're already cheating and you're only fucking YP now. don't be a whore"

and 4?

Mr. Business... texted me. I think we'd be better as friends. Mostly because there is such a thing as too big if you know what I mean... It's too bad too... he's a really great guy and will make someone a good bf/husband one day

number 3

for the season, that is

right... M... the guy from last winter... J's ex's cousin... right... from new years eve. well he called me last weekend and as tempting as I know his body (read: dick) is, I don't knowingly mess with a guy who's been locked up... especially not right after he gets out. It's not that I think once a guy goes in he's getting assraped daily, it's just... ugh.. I dunno, not appealing to me.
Anyways... we had a (very) brief phone sex session... to be continued?


oh and yeah I never mentioned... J's ex is friends with PR... riiight... so hopefully M keeps his mouth shut.

yessss

finally. me and yp friday night... my car... windows fogged... it was a challenge in a corolla.... makeup on the ceiling, toe prints on the window... hand prints on the dash... wild fun. :)

see.. what happened was... J and I went to Innuendos with her new best friend and on the way home, right when i was texting YP to see what was up with him, PR calls asking what I'm doing.. like "you should come over and let me eat that pussy" i'm sitting there rolling my eyes.. and.... he was in the car with J's ex who wanted her to come over to his place... so PR's like "they're having sex.. you should come over so we can too..." wtf kinda "mr. me too" type of shit is that? smh. I did go to his place but I was texting YP the whole way over there and I ended up changing my mind once I got inside. All I really wanted was the collar to my Halloween costume... but the light in his car wasn't working so I said I'd come back in the daytime. So as soon as I left his place I texted YP that I was giving into temptation. I went and picked him up and we parked on a deserted street and .. well yeah.. I can really say that that's the only time I've truly enjoyed car sex

oh yeah... more about that being his best... yeah my ego was stroked again :). "You really made me like sex.. before I was like 'it's cool, i'll get it whenever' but you..." with a dazed look on his face. I couldn't even come up with a response to that... and I can't even say it's an age thing, because i'm pretty sure he's fucked this one chick who's a couple years older than me (ah.. the things you find out during truth or dare).. or maybe he just got head (?) hm...

i did it

that's all. details later... maybe

I think he might be the best. really. happily, the feeling is mutual :)

I don't think it's gonna happen

I reeeeeally wanted YP tonight but he had plans... sort of.

also today
My non-boyfriend (i'll explain later) was trying to make plans for tonight but I told him we'll have to see. I still might hang out with him... movies or gameworks or something...
Then again I might go to a club with J


non-boyfriend: OK. PR and I have been demoted to "dating". I've decided we don't talk or see each other enough to be considered "in a relationship".

crap & i'm gay

that's the best title i can think of
ok... I keep telling myself I'm gonna write about more than sex... but um.. not tonight

OK.. I've been texting and poking (facebook) with YP tonight... and now I know for sure he wants to fuck again. no doubt about it ("we shoud fuk")... dammit if my parents weren't so strict I'd be.... ok maybe not... i need to OFFICIALLY make up my mind about PR (my bf)
also.. this girl from downlelink... she is so fucking beautiful... not hot, beautiful. well... hot too :D I can't work up the nerve to ask for her number.... :(
another gay thing in my life... I went to a gay club tonight... it was interesting. LMAO... found out my friend's sis used to have a girlfriend... and we saw her (the girlfriend) there tonight... see the problem is... my friend isn't OUT (I'm not either though) so she's like "oh crap don't tell my sis"

these are late night (not drunk) ramblings... I'll edit in the morning... maybe... or afternoon

Being the best someone's ever had

So... I woke up too early because of the time change and was looking at yesterday's text messages and I have to admit my ego has been stroked. YP said "I've never had sex that good". He and D (the ex I was with for almost 5 years off and on) are tied as the best I've ever had (for different reasons). But the thing about YP is... he's so young-still legal though- and already so good. I'd hate (no really LOVE) to see how he is when he's like 25. Dont' get me wrong he's not the first... I've had a few guys tell that I'm the best they've ever had or "you turned me out" and "top five of all time" (from a guy who's been with.... a LOT of women) and I was just laying here thinking about why this is, considering they're all different.

There are two reasons I can think of for this, first, because I truly love sex... no, I truly love penis. (Being bi doesn't detract from my love of the cock either.) I love it because I'm good at it and I'm good at it because I love it.
The other reason is because I find out little things they like. For example this one guy loved thongs, so every time I would see him, I'd wear a thong. Another guy liked my feet, so I'd make sure to always have fresh polish and wear flip flops or sandals when I went to see him (it was in the summer).

I think those are the two real reasons D and YP are tied for "best" for me... they get me.. they do what I like and do it well

Song of the day: "Freaky Girl (remix)" by Gucci Mane f. Lil Kim and Ludacris.. because loving sex and individualizing are good and well, but being a freak who likes it all kinda ways doesn't hurt!

also.. I have a new blog I love that I just found The Real HollyBlue: Reflections of a Consensual Sex Slave. I've been curious about that lifestyle for a while now.

I just may be training him (need a nickname... initials are a nogo) tonight... we'll see. If not, I'm going out with the girls to a club or a strip club. I'd prefer a club though. I don't really like paying to see GUYS take off their clothes. I can see that pretty much anytime I want (with as much variety... lol) and get something after the show. I'd rather go to one with female strippers. Which reminds me... I never followed up in my old blog with details about the first (and only) time me and J went to one. Basically the girls there were either really skinny (nothing to shake!) or butterfaces (with really nice bodies...:) ) I was shy about tipping... I couldn't bring myself to throw money at them like i saw others (including J) doing. I just set the money on the stage or handed it to them when they were done. A girl doing pole tricks in the nude is way hotter than a guy taking off his shirt and hip rolling.